Through blurry eyes I make out the time -its 3:25 AM. Star and Kc are sitting up in their den, and giving me their little whimpers; “please wake up Mommy.” Of course being a Mom I sleep very lightly, so when my fur babies cry out I am up with robe and slippers ready to go. Down the stairs, turn off the alarm, out the back door and what a relief. Star had to really use the potty, and Kc will never pass up an opportunity to pee. Now that their business was complete we went back in, set the alarm, and just sat downstairs for a little puppy time. Hugs and licks all around

 

    Back to bed, I may get another hour of sleep. Star runs right into her den, and gets her little treat. Kc holds back and doesn’t want to get into their den. This rarely happens so I close the den door, and get into bed. Kc then jumps up and lays down next to me. He needs me!

  As we lay there spooning I begin to let go of all the sadness I have been keeping deep inside. So much has been going on in my life that it has been difficult to even process. Each day I tackle whatever new problems come at me, and keep moving forward. Until this moment I haven’t taken the time to allow myself to grieve some losses. Kc laying there knowing I was burying all this pain, gave me this wonderful safe place to let go of some of it. Just having this sweet loving dog there gave me the permission I needed on some level to open up. He’s a very good therapist.

 

   For the next couple of hours I lay letting go of a lot of pain I was carrying around. This is where my gratitude comes in for the love of a shy black boxer. I  know he was worth every penny of the $60,000.00 (My $60,000 Boxer Baby ) spent to keep him alive, and well.

 

    I fell in love again for the most intuitive, shy black boxer name Kc all over again.