So I’m almost done with my Spiritual Marketing Class with Jan. Since my vacation things have slowed down for me “vision” wise. Not during the Reiki sessions but in my dreams or that early morning awakening when I used to see Mochi (my cat) or other animals. I’m just in all honesty tired. It’s either jet leg from my trip or it’s the time change. But I’m starting to get back in the groove. One of my last posts on the vision board I created I mentioned somone named Shanti.
I have decided to share about her. I think I haven’t said anything because maybe I didn’t know what people would think! Part of me is still a bit unbelieving, but there is no doubt she exists. I can see her. I see her when I Reiki, I see her when I meditate. I see her sometimes when I just close my eyes.
Here’s the story. Back in February after I saw the Shaman, Jan asked me if I “was” the Shaman now or in past life? I do love animals and they do visit me and have messages for my clients that resonate with them. Ok, Shaman, maybe. Then soon after I had a vision or dream from a woman dressed in gold. She had a shawl or something over her head. She was very upset, even crying. She was really calling out to me. This actually startled me very much. I held my hand out as if to Reiki her. She was gone. I couldn’t stop thinking about her. Is this someone from a parallel universe? Who the heck knows? My mind was blown. Her sadness was bothering me. She came back again the next day still a bit sad but she appeared with Bodhitsattva (the white horse). I did not know her name either at this time.
So I thought I am going to ask Jan and see what she thinks. Jan told me to ask her who she was. I was stumped. Ask her? So I asked Jan, can you ask her? (hoping she would say yes!) Jan said yes. I think part of me wanted someone else to check in if this woman really existed or was I just crazy 🙂 Jan wrote me back and said: the woman with the ear, gold breastplate etc. She’s sad because the world she’s in isn’t ready for her and her extraordinary gifts. She wants so much to help people, to change things, and instead they revile her, they fear her, and tell her she is bad. She doesn’t understand because she knows she only ever intended good. She still hears it all and thinks she can do nothing with it. And that deepens her sadness and powerlessness. Let her know that she can now share her gifts through you…that she can share what she hears (she already is doing that) and together you will help people to heal and to “know”. Once she is conscious of joining with you, her sadness will lift and the energy of the two of you synergistically will be enormous.
I was blown away completely. She exists. I kind of freaked out reading what Jan wrote. I read it again and again. Then I wrote her back WHOA! What is her name? Jan wrote me back,
Think of her as energy. Don’t get too hung up on her identity. And the main thing, dialogue with her, ask her, tell her about yourself. In a sense she IS a part of you. Collective consciousness holds everything…and you are resonating with her/this energy. So now TAKE A BREATH! :))) and another, another. It all just IS.
Ok, energy. Yeah, I can process this. Sure. So I went up to my bedroom where I saw her first and pulled the covers over my head. She appeared to me with her hair down. (She usually had it up or in a ponytail) Not afraid. I talked to her. Told her who I was, etc. Told her I cannot “hear” so she has to help me.. but told her together we can help many people and animals, only healing… Then she was gone.
That night I had a dream: where she (she told me her name was Shanti) she had me take this gold tube like thing out of her head. She was healed. She was dancing too! (That sadness was gone!) Then she was gone. In the morning when I woke up in my 3rd eye I could only see Bodhisattva and Mochi. The woman was gone. I thought to myself, did we synergistically blend? Where’d she go? I got nothing.
But then we had 4 Reiki sessions that day. Shanti was there. She was holding out her hands… it looks as if she was helping. She looked beautiful and all right. Then in the next session it was if she took the pet and put her on this pillow type thing and was healing.. I dont know.. but I guess I helped her get where she needed to go.
Its been several months now and it feels good to write about her. In more work with Jan and some visions I had on my trip, I believe Shanti is “me”…I’ve got all these collective people with me helping me heal myself and heal all our clients! I saw her again last night. When I did the meditation on my trip, Shanti showed up and did it with me. It actually made me laugh.